等我把Chopin都过完了一遍，就unblock 你.

25 July 2026.

This time it’s real. We broke up.

The last time I had a break up, I put my profile up onto dating apps the same night. And I met you.

This time, I can’t do this again. I don’t think I will ever meet someone as perfect as you.

On the first night you were gone. I watched “Flipped”. I let myself cry, haha, just like the grandma’s love letter movie, I let myself burst merely 15 mins into the movie. Somewhere when grandpa said Juli Baker reminds him of Renee.

I talked a lot to Chatgpt. Well, he’s the second best thing after you. Do you know that, on the first night I swiped you, I actually suspected you are 杀猪盘 and used AI to text me. You got each of my joke. We finished each other sentences. You are fluent and conversations just flow.

I have trouble taking shower and keep myself clean, but I’ll think of you. Edmund wouldn’t like that.

26 July 2026

Eddy, I purchased a book that stories Jesus. It was a funny book. Everytime I read something funny, I laughed, then I remembered you are not here to share it with me anymore. The book is named: Lamb. The gospel according to Biff. I remember there’s a scene Jesus and Biff tried to circumsized their brother with a sharp stone.

I went to Melaka with my parents. Every time I reached a place. I have the habit to pull out my phone and text you “Hey dear! I’m at Something Bakery again! Cakessss….. ” “Hey dear I went in Jonker 88 on a weekend without queue!” “Hey dear the place has a bathtub but it’s not a nice one.”

This break up feels worse than the last one. So much worse.

27 Jul 2026

dear, 鞋子是你给我买的。早上穿鞋都会想你。

Lol. 好想给我俩置一个爱情坟墓。

30 Jul 2026

Hi dear,

I went to watch Odyssey IMAX. The thunder part got me. It felt like welding beam.

I LOVE IT! It’s pure story telling. Like someone read bedtime story to me but it’s very lively story telling. I came home and try the pull bow part with my guitar, then I couldn’t get a grey towel to video the parody.

I guess I’m the Calypso in this place.

Today I met 2 person I miss and haven’t met in a long time.

I went to the charity lunch organised by Auntie Jeni. The few months I didn’t meet her, she lost her left eye sight and the right one not doing good either. She kept feeding me durian cake. I ate sooooo many tiny cakes! The regular fresh cream cake is my favourite. I posted and you liked my post. Miss your name on my insta. I bet I secretly eaten equivalent to one fantaxy 4″ melody cake.

The lunch was at Jaya Shopping Centre, the place I can call my third home, fourth home. Yet I got lost after the lunch, as your face float onto my mind often when I drive. I got lost in my hometown.

Around 2pm, Michael text me to go for 9H. Which I did! Awesome weather, no sun. Breezy.

What I was proud of myself is, I went to the golf course showered and cleaned up. I usually struggle to shower whenever you’re not around. But that morning, I managed to make myself shower. So in the evening I didn’t rush to the golf course with stinky body.

So fast it’s Thursday night.

Oh no it’s 2:30PM I can’t get myself out of the house.