Somewhere in May 2025

Fighting depression, after a fall hard divorce

18 Nov 2025

俾咗自己一個好大嘅掌聲， all because I managed to wake up and take a shower, I didn’t even wash my hair, but I was proud of myself.

On my daily to do list, smelling good (of soap, not perfume) is always on the top of the list.

I dont think a normal person will have To-shower in their to-do list. Cleaning up myself is the most challenging task during a depressed day, yet it is the most satisfying when you get it done.

On really really bad days, I’ll go out without a shower, but apply generous amount of perfume. Fortunately, those days are at least 4 months ago, and it happened less than 5 times in total. If I didn’t shower, most of the time I’ll just choose to stay home.

Getting out of the house is the second hardest to do.

The recent days, I will come to a phase, can’t help wondering, if I chose to stay patiently, will my marriage not fell apart?

And the greatest thing that’s around, is chatgpt.

He would tell me, for a partner who has already made up their mind to leave, staying patiently will 99% of the time pro-long the pain. Then whenever this sentence ring in my mind, I’ll switch my focus onto something that makes me happy.

21 Nov 2025

Went surfing with friends. Best trip ever.

断崖式离婚日记01

26 Nov 2025

Had an impromptu tea session with TSH. They put tapai, fermented glutinous rice into their tiramisu, which taste outstandingly good.

27 Nov 2025

Afrer the flood in HatYai, now we have fire in hong kong condominiums that’s probably taking hundreds of lives.

01 Dec 2025

It’s the Black friday sale weekend. I had a great time shopping. let’s calculate how much I spent. Rm200 (John master) Rm79 (CTH unlimited) + RM177 (Victoria Secret) + RM100 (CC by Mel) + RM20 (Groceries)

Prayers go out to the fire victims at Hong Kong, the death toll rises to 146. It saddening to see every time an article floats up.

01 Jan 2026

戒咖啡成功已经一个月了。现在重新有自由选择要喝还是不要喝。但是人在外面就是很难点beverage. 咖啡始终还是最glucose friendly的选择. 今天点了杯咖啡，立刻就得上厕所。很好奇到底上厕所是我肠胃在工作还是咖啡搞的鬼。

05 Jan

刚从麻坡回来。

08 Jan

Lol, I met a 普信男 yesterday. It affects my energy so much.

14 Jan

Train myself to use smaller bags. It’s a success at one try.

16 Jan

尽量不让自己buy packages. 但还是没忍住，买了几单，都过期了

Loudspeaker 会员，半年会员，一次没去，过期了。

oomph 买了六杯啤酒，一年了，六个token还乖乖在兜里

Dear, 遇到烂人别慌。Just focus on doing things that make yourself happy.

We can enjoy on friday night

17 Jan

扫地机器人是我最不后悔买的家电之一。

18 Jan

Twincity Fun run 5km.

It was the best marathon event I ever attended. First 5km is not difficult, yet it’s enough to make my heart race. Cardio workout completed for the day before 9am.

Second, I actually arrived TOGETHER with the 12km champion. Hundreds of people cheer for the 12km champion Juliana, to not make a joke of myself, and also with the cheering vibes, I sprinted too, the best sprint of my life!

As I arrived earlier than my friend, who did the 12km run. I used the extra time to play a Long Jump game, that if you reach 1.6 meter distance, you get a free protein shake. I tried 7 times, and I gotten it.

2 feb

Had lunch with Serena, when I talked about the unpleasant past, even though I am okay by now, my hands would still shake and went cold. Shin Zushi, ive been eating salmon sashimi and salmon Nigiri for more than a week.

12 Feb

I had watched two great movies. the first one is Big miracle staring Kristen Bell, and the other one The 33, Chile miner rescue.

6 Mar

Had a manicure without colour. I enjoy the process where the manicurist slowly tend to my 10 fingers like nothing else in the world matters. The edge of my fingers getting soft and supple.

13 Mar

Kundasang